Tonight, I was IMing my father. He was trying to talk me into attending his new in-laws 50th wedding anniversary. Now why in the world would I want to attend that? According to him, it’s because they are family now. They want us there. Yeah right! My ass! I don’t know why they even give a shit about us. I don’t even know their names. I have only met these people maybe…three times. If that. I just don’t feel connected to them at all. Besides just because one marries doesn’t make you family….it just means you’re related. To me, family is who looks out for you and cares for you and on occasion…will drop you a line just to see how you are. Right now, I guess I’m overly critical of others. I’m in a very distrustful place. Too many people have lied to me including my father. With him, I placed him on a pedestal way too high. A pedestal he should not have even been on. I could still be frustrated about the goings from this week. I need to find a way to purge all this anxiety and frustration. I only hope that my frustrations and such will be purged soon. I’m not sure how much longer my emotions can stand to be within myself. I must find way to purge them. Let the brain storming begin.