The day began off key and ended even worse. I had problems sleeping again due to the choking issues from my sinus infection then only to awake at 6, hop off to work only to find out that my mothers thing is tomorrow so I had to take her all the way back to my place. I knew this would completely infuriate Tim but I was just trying to dump her off so I wouldn’t be too late to work. Tim kept calling me because she was driving him insane with her constant whining and complaining about nothing. How does one complain about nothing. Because what she is complaining about is so unimportant…..it’s nothing to anyone. She is only complaining to her her own voice. On top of it all……I have to help her find a place in Richmond. Oh I am so not looking forward to that. I am just ready for the upside of my life. Everything has been on the downside…..we are fine…..but not great….not good. Just fine. We are surviving. I don’t want to survive anymore. I want to be comfortable …..no I want to be happy. I want to stop struggling. I want to bask in happiness. Maybe this is why I am having so many problem with writing. Honestly, I’m not real sure what I want but I know what don’t want. I don’t want an apartment that is cluttered as it is. I don’t want all the bickering and nit-picking that has been happening. I don’t want to stay home all the time.